This picture was from the middle of July.
So much was going on in my head here. So much is still going on in my head. I learned a lot that summer, still learning a lot to this very day. Still perfecting my craft, still fuckin' up, still pushing to make some dope projects.
That was the true beginning of me pursuing something bigger than just what was in my head. I become frustrated at times now because I want my ideas to be tangible. I don't want to be that artist that just talks a lot of shit but you don't see any of my work actually happen. That scares me honestly. I have a lot of ideas/projects as any other creative person, but I keep most of them to myself just to avoid bouncing around to much.
Since the beginning of the year I've noticed my brain has gone into over drive. My body too. I can't sleep for very long and my brain has been super active, sometimes to the point of bothering me making think something is wrong with myself. I've come to understand, I'm just hungry. Hungry for greatness, hungry for success, spiritually, physically, mentally all of it.
I'm still learning about myself each day, understand the "right" way to do things. What's most important is that I feel comfortable in not quitting. I mean I second guess myself, but everyone does once in a while. I'm my biggest motivator but also my biggest critique. Different voice for different situations living in my head, forming it's own semi-peaceful community.
I'm blessed to be where I am, some people aren't even able to take a chance at what they truly want to do. The one's who make it are the ones who didn't give up.
A friendly reminder to myself, to you, and even the person that didn't even care enough to read this far or at all that I'm not giving up. This is only the beginning. The first steps toward climbing a mountain. Each step will bring me to the top. Have patience, confidence, modesty and hard fuckin' work to bring yourself and others with you to the top. Find out what the top is for you. It's beauty in everything, it just takes the right set of eyes to appreciate it.
*This is entry #15 of a self imposed challenge to post something everyday for 30 days straight. It's a short story. Leave some feedback and come back daily to see what he posts for his month long challenge*