Faith in Control

I walk through a forest forging my own path. The other paths I saw I knew wouldn't bring me to where I wanted to go. And so I took my staff and swept the bushes and twigs out my way. 

Focused and confident I am in control of my own destiny. Hours turn into days on my path, my confidence slipping in my own decision making.

I thought I knew what to do.

I thought I was in control.

But I wasn't.

I sat down in my own trail, on my knees weeping. Why couldn't I do what I've seen so many others do?

 I lifted my head to the sky and wiped my tears. Both my hands in front my face.

Helpless.

And so, I prayed. I called on Allah to forge the path through me. I spoke allowed asking for his guidance. 

I struggled to get up again, but I did just that. I looked around and saw the tall grass and bushes surrounding me. Not knowing where the "right" way laid.

And so I closed my eyes and said softly, "I am not in control."

And I swung my staff, continuously reminding myself of the truth.

That I'm not in control. None of us are. Yes you have decisions to make but those decisions are easier when you understand your power and lack of it.

The ultimate guide held my hand an swung it for me, carrying my feet one after the other pushing forward. And instead of pain I felt pleasure, the weight on my shoulders floated away. The closer I came to him the closer my destination came clear to me.

Through that unseen jungle I forged a path, but I wasn't alone. I opened my eyes once more to see that my dreams became a reality. I turned around and saw how far I had come. Tears of happiness ran down my face as I looked up beyond the sky. Thankful.

From pain comes pleasure. The pain reminded me where to go to for the ultimate support and soon my true strength that had laid dormant awoken. Out of that jungle I felt stronger than what I was before I had entered. And to train myself I realized it is everlasting strength I receive as my faith becoming stronger. From another plane of existence we've been touched, you just have to remind yourself that the power given to you is stronger than anything you'd make.