How many times have I written about the same love? Not Enough

I had a dream about you.

But you weren't you. And I wasn't myself.

We were completely different people. But that bond. That energy.

The things that feel like a magnet attaching myself to you, still existed.

I don't believe in having a past life or a next life on this world but the thought & idea pops in my head now & then. And whenever it does, I wish to find you once again like I did.

And like a TV that dream & idea change to another, to whereever the next life takes me. Takes us.

And in it I pray that again, I am able to find you. What would it be without you. That bottomless pit of Love stored only for you. 

I should enjoy the time with you here & I will but being aware of our mortality only makes me appreciate our time together even more.

How many times have I fallen in love with you before? With your soul & your energy. 

I don't know. 

I've fallen in love with you multiple times in this life & plane of existence already.

And each time I am thankful. 

My soul lifts higher than it did on its own. Air tastes different, the thought of you relays in my mind like my favorite tv show. 

How blessed I am to be with you, life and the after life I do not know where it shall take us, but Lord willing the silver lining between our souls never gets severed and I follow the string back to you. 

My confidante

Can you be my confidante?

I go crazy talking to myself,

All I desire is for the music to be turned down, phone turned off

...and just listen. 

I'm just a young man growing into a grown man. 

You young too you swear you don't need a man.

And listen...I get it.

But I'm not trying to save you girl I respect that you have your own cape.

But I just need ears to listen. A mind and soul to show some compassion. Eyes to capture my expressions. To look into as I talk. A beautiful mind that understands.

My confidante, let you be the friend I can entrust my universe of ideas with. 

Not to be your man but for you to be my...friend, a living angel to help cleanse my mind, cause this word is awfully dirty, and my soul has to be kept clean.